Saturday, May 29, 2010
My Oh My!
It's been a LOOOONG time since I have posted! I have spent a lot of time over the last year reflecting on the changes that I have made and the changes that have made me. It's kind of crazy how fast the time goes when you're stuck in your own head.
I am now a full-time artist and proud to say it. I have tried to ignore the calling in my heart to be an artist for many many MANY years. Exhausted, I finally gave in. It has been a very hard decision but one in which I am sure I will not regret in any way, shape or form. It is what I was born to do. I believe that my art will make a difference. I hope to inspire those who hit a rough patch in their lives as well as encourage them to keep fighting through. And even those who have happy lives, I hope to make them smile.
I spent a lot of time thinking about this decision. Pros and Cons, the 'starving' artist beliefs, the bills, creating, business license, online presence, yada yada yada. Am I scared? Hell yes! But I will do it anyway. Living in fear is something that I have never wanted to do. So here I am.
I may starve, I may cry, I may not become famous, but my son will be taken care of and I will be happy and maybe even at total peace someday. Although, I wouldn't be against becoming famous either, just to clarify :)
There are a huge list of things that I need to learn and do. I take it one day at a time and today, I am sharing my thoughts through the blog world. Taking this one day at a time seems to help the level of anxiety. One day at a time has worked splendidly. I have more commission offers than I have time for, I am working on getting new things in my Etsy shop, I have made an entry for a book that has essentially traveled the world and will soon be published, and just wrote an article for the Crescendoh blog.
I was so worried that I would run out of inspiration, but if I look closely, I see inspiration everywhere. I have never had so much inspiration in my life! Lately, I have been seeing hearts in every day things. An orange peel in the garbage can, a leaf, on ice cream. Granted, I carved the heart in the ice cream myself, but it inspires me and reminds me of love anyway.
I am very excited to share this journey with you! I will share the ups and downs, hearts, interests, and anything else that I love. Thank you very much for reading. Take care of yourself and I will talk to you soon.